Me and my Travelling buddy having an alcohol free day…LOL
Well it’s back to work and 2013 is definitely here – no getting around the fact that holidays are coming to an end.. Christmas already seems like forever-ago (if that’s a word) and believe it or not they are advertising Easter in the shops..
Give me a BREAK!
Hubby and I went overseas for our rest and relaxation period with our travelling buddies:
Thailand in fact – so nice and lots of fun was had by all…. Thai people are so friendly with an incredible way of being happy with whatever little they have.. So refreshing and certainly a culture shock but a great way to forget about everything you have waiting for you back home.
We celebrated our holidays a little too much – don’t get me wrong I don’t regret enjoying all the fabulous flavours and good foods but celebrating something EVERY night –takes its toll on your liver eventually. We planned an alcohol free day – actually now I think about it we were going to have at least two, but we lost track of what day it was, so alcohol free Tuesday got remembered on Thursday and so on and so on.
Plus we packed our gym gear, but that ended up being unpacked in almost pristine condition. Hang on, no there was that one time we trained – Ah yeah I remember – but that was it..
I blame the excited little voice in my head reminding me “you’re on holidays – AND you’re walking so much today – that counts for something” haha I fall for it every time…
Even if I walked the Great Wall of China in a day it wouldn’t have covered the amount of sugar I ate and drank the night before – but hey I never do the math when I’m drinking.
SO what am I left with?
Extra on-board luggage that I can’t unpack over night – that’s what! Damn…feels like about 10kilos worth too…
Holiday photos are great and of course the blurry memories too – BUT I can’t fit into my favourite jeans without the extra muffin top so I have to ask myself WHEN will I ever learn…
According to the scales I am about 3 kilos heavier then when I left – may not seem much to some people, but 3 kilos of extra fat is not healthy. Plus I forgot to tell you I didn’t quite get rid of the extra holiday kilos I gained last year so in reality I’m about 4 kilos above my healthy happy “Look at me, Look at me” weight that I like to BE ME in….
You know what I mean? Everyone has an ideal ‘body look’ – I hate saying weight range – it’s so clinical – to me it’s the place where I am body happy – body happy means I can stand in front of my wardrobe and I can choose from anything I have because Its going to fit like a glove and I can say to myself – oh yeah baby look at me – I still got it.. ha..
Yes well sadly it’s been way too long since I have done that.
AND there is nothing worse when your hubby says – why don’t you wear that nice black little something you used to wear – and you reply – ”um no I can’t wear that because it doesn’t fit anymore”. Ouch…
And here’s the thing – it’s not just the clothes you can’t wear – it’s the fact my energy levels suffer, my daily happy vibes are pretty dull and being in the health and fitness industry – well it certainly makes me feel a little hypocritical that’s for sure.
Plus the most important part of all this extra kilo stuff is that is just plain unhealthy to carry that wasted fat on your body. If I put my ego aside and stop worrying about how I look to other people I have to face the reality that Fat will age my body quicker than it needs to.
Extra fat from stupid crappy sugary foods and fatty liver from too much alcohol with cause my body to break down from the inside out and become a toxic haven for disease.
Again if you don’t think 4kilos is much to worry about – go to the gym and pick up a 4 kilos hand weight and think about carrying that around all day. 4 Kilos of muscle is at least useful and helpful to your body (and burns fat) – but Fat is just useless and a great way to get older quicker.
Well I’m almost 44 and sadly it’s taken me nearly 20 years to realise that I need to start practising what I preach and turn my SHOULD’s into MUST’s and take some action about doing something for me and my health rather than “what will people think of me” kind of BS that has gotten me NO-where to date…
No more ego driven health choices for me…
2013 is going to be about making decisions based on MY bodies health and longevity rather then what others will think if I don’t succeed OR because I’m a Personal Trainer I should have abs and prance around in a singlet top and tiny shorts to advertise how good I look…
NO Way That’s not for me – plus I’m not good at prancing.
I have finally decided I not only want to BE healthy but I want to Feel healthy, Think healthy and Smile healthy –and let go of that picture perfect clean cut body that screams lettuce and tuna for breakfast plus 400 reps of bicep curls before lunch or running like Forrest Gump all day and instead enjoy the idea of preparing good healthy fresh foods for ME and my hard working body not because I ‘have to’ but because I WANT to…because I deserve it..
Instead of the ”couldn’t be bothered’s” – find the “can’t wait to get started” kind of healthy meal planning.
A daily dose of fresh seasonal fruits and crispy vegetables with small serves of protein topped with healthy fats and a little treat to make me feel warm and loved.
This is going to be my 2013 resolution.
Let go of the People Pleasing Perfect PT Image and say hello to Healthy, Lean and Fighting Fit, Fabulous Feeling 44 years young, Loving ME, for ME BODY.
Wonder Woman look out!
Of course first of all I need to work a little harder to get rid of this 4kilos BUT a good clean up meal plan and detox will kick that off and get me on my way….
Why am I sharing this with you now?
Well let’s put it this way – I’m over being preached to about all the different diets that aren’t sustainable and how we are marketed too as though we are one size fits all BEINGS.
Clearly we are NOT one size fits all…
It’s truly ridiculous.
I don’t want to live the rest of my life counting calories and saying no to every social event on the calendar for fear of binge eating every dessert on the trolley because I’ve starved myself for the last 6 months to be a size that my body isn’t designed to sustain.
I’m going back to basics, trusting myself, being kind to myself, being fussy with the foods I eat but also accepting I need comforting sometimes too.
AND if sometimes that’s with food/alcohol (insert comfort thing here) then so be it – hopefully as I learn more about myself and become true to my cause the comfort needs will change and the void that I’m trying to fill will be healed.
AND maybe not, but at least I’m not going to pretend anymore that Weight Loss Success can only be achieved when you live on the mountain top with your lettuce leaves and treadmill as your only friend patting yourself on the back for being your goal weight and dreaming of hamburgers with the lot.
Thanks for letting me share – I’m feeling better already….
Now for some good old fashioned detoxing and fat burning exercises ASAP…
Stay tuned I will keep you posted on my progress…
Here is to living a life of self acceptance, extra baggage and all, so I can be the best ME/BODY I can be…..
Thanks for your company and bring on 2013..
Charlie G Hunter
Slightly unHealthy Health Coach and unfit Personal Trainer (at your service)