Resistance to Change

Change is something we all wish for at some point in our lives,  in fact we wish for change more often then we realize simply through complaining about our current situation.  The difficulty with change is that it will require us to feel uncomfortable and down right yuk for us to get to the other side of change so we can start the whole process all over again.

Let me share a current example for you.  For a very long time I have wanted to write a book.  In fact it’s something I have always known I would end up doing.  Strangely enough I struggle with the idea of adopting a daily writing ritual to help this come to fruition.  I know it sounds silly that I have a desire to become an author but I didn’t want to ‘have to’ write everyday.

Hmmm of course this is going to pose a problem.

On my list of things that I desperately wanted to change, was getting into a routine of daily writing.  Doesn’t seem very hard I know but when you have a huge resistance to being successful then all your fears are faced when it comes to doing something that will eventually bring you to your success.

Daily Routine Writing = Successful Author

Fear of success is such a strange fear.

Whilst I get that many fears are seen as silly to the person who doesn’t have it, fear of success seems like “why the hell would you not want to be successful?”  Right?

Right…  The thing is I DO want to be successful so having a fear of success is very annoying.   And something I have long wanted to address and work through.  What they don’t explain very well when you need to work through your fears is that  – it’s going to be (VERY) – excruciatingly uncomfortable.   I mean of course it is, right?  If it wasn’t going to feel icky and awful and terrifying then I would have conquered it a long time ago.

So this idea of CHANGE – is now – in reality becoming a facing your fears example.  Because if we really put things into perspective, the real reason we get stuck is because we want what’s on the other side of change but we don’t immediately just walk into it because we have to go through the Massively Excruciatingly Uncomfortable to get there.

If we step back from this for a moment we can see it’s actually the system of life.  It’s set up to keep us moving forward and reaching for the things we really want but not getting them so easily that we don’t learn on the way OR just get what we want so easily because, well that would get a bit boring really wouldn’t it?

In fact we could call it the system to LIFE itself.

After all what would life be like if we just sat on a stump (that we might call comfort) and went no where…

Life would be like um, Death… right?

Life is literally all set up to force us to change.  Force might be too strong a word but geared up to entice us into changing constantly so that nothing ever gets too easy and simple that we find out we are sitting on a stump and then dead. ( I like being a little dramatic)

Life is about the challenges to get unstuck not the things that caused us to be stuck..  the things that cause us to BE stuck is when we focus on fear too long  and getting grizzly about it.  Then we just spend too much time talking about being stuck and complaining about being stuck and before we know it we are looking at our stump rather than facing our fear (and the icky part) and reaching for the next stage that contains everything we have been dreaming about.

The next level of normal…

You know that everything you really want is on the other side of that Massively Excruciatingly Uncomfortable which is still way better than being dead on a stump.

So here I am practicing my daily, writing and weekly blogging and building a manuscript.  AND you know what, it isn’t that hard after all and I think just maybe the Massively Excruciatingly Uncomfortable isn’t going to be quite so massive or excrutiating after all.



You are the Light

light worker

As an entrepreneur I  was beaten and battered and worn out.

I considered myself a failure and didn’t have any energy to reignite my flame.

I had lost hope of my success and ability to drive through what was necessary to be an entrepreneur.  I don’t think I even new how to look for it again.

The idea of getting a job was comforting but it also felt like I was being booked into a nursing home. Waiting to die. I had lost.  This game of life had beaten me to a pulp.

I had become the  disappointment, the one thing  that I tried so hard to prove to my family I would never be.  And yet people still believed in me. They still believed that I had something to give that I still had possibility, talent, skills and experience.

In fact, (what I didn’t yet realize) now I had more.

In the process of giving up. I had also assumed that I had lost everything when in fact I was gaining more experience that I had ever known possible.  Experience that would be the most effective skill of all.

How to rise up and go again…..

How to rise up and start again.

How to rise up and shine like never before, and not based on hope like last time but with heart, passion and determination that showed no fear of loss because you were already down to bare bones.

Once you have experienced every known emotion to it’s extreme and allowed your insides to spill out onto the pavement for everyone to see there isn’t really anything to hide behind anymore.

Once you have had your heart broken and your eyes spilling out tiny razors from crying so much and your best days are measured by how much daylight you might see.  Nothing really scares you anymore.

Your darkness has been your training ground for the ability to lead people to the light.  As a light bearer you need to know how to get through the tunnels of darkness without any assistance so people faithfully follow you.

You aren’t afraid of the light being blown out because you know the terrain.

You have lived it

You have sat in it

You have walked and paced every corner and felt every damp cold floor bed of every turn.

The truth is you are really holding the light for them not for you .

You know the way out

You don’t need the light

You ARE the light.